Tuesday, July 21, 2015

You're Never Alone

Sometimes you might be surrounded by many peoples but somehow you feel so lonely deep inside, and even though nobody knows but it really hurts. One thing you should remember, you're never alone. Allah will always be with you without any term or condition. You will never ever be alone cause He loves you.
Anyway, I'm wishing you happy Ied Mubarak. May Allah's blessings will always be with us.

Friday, May 8, 2015

Because You are Loved!

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved....

(Josh Groban's song You Are Loved (Don't Give Up))

Somehow I really missed blogging. I promised to spend my time even just once a month to post over here again.

By the way, to me this song is really powerful. It brings strong message. It makes me feel so lucky for having you my love. Thanks for always be patient to lead your strong but fragile wife :-*

Sunday, March 1, 2015

About Beauty and Something Behind Selfie Photo

“Beauty is more than what we see with the eyes. People are more than their conditions. I am more than my hair and skin." - Rebecca Brown

Yeah beauty, body and face only shows the exterior. You need to know more the people not by looking on their appearance but you need to understand them as a person, deep down inside.
Watch the video below. Rebecca Brown  took selfie for 6.5 years. The photos show her physical transformation, but we also pass through milestone moments of her life where she posts notes about her bouts of depression, suicidal tendencies and more. In the video through pictures can bee seen her first experiences in many situation that she had in her life. And she also leaves an important message for her viewers in the comments section. 

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I Know I'm Gonna Lose You

Rasanya lama nian saya tak menengok rumah kedua saya ini.... Rasanya kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen.... Belakangan ini saya memang didera kesibukan yang tiada hentinya. Keteteran didera beban pekerjaan. Fiuh.... resiko jadi karyawan. Semoga anak-anak saya kelak tak ikut merasai derita emaknya ini. Amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin...

Tengah malam ini saya terusik dengan sepenggal lagu lama.... Tepatnya jadul.... Karena saya yakin lagu ini dirilis jauh-jauh hari sebelum saya dilahirkan ke dunia ini. Mungkin kala bapak dan ibu saya masih remaja :)
Lagu yang sang penyanyinya pun tak saya kenal. Kurang lebih beginilah bunyi lirik lagu yang membuat saya semakin merasa gamang dan galau di tengah malam ini.

The sweetest dream,
I dream with you
You’re my sunshine when troubles make me blue
I’m so alone know that you go
I didn’t mean to hurt you
Come back where you belong

* Yes I know I know I’m Gonna loose you
But my shoes keep running back to you

“Cause they know, there'll never be another
There will never be another you

Still I go, that same old way
Where we walk together, and kiss the night away

Only a fool could let you go…, 
My world is so empty,
Come back I miss you so....

Aiiiiiiiih entah kenapa lirik lagu ini menohok ulu hati saya. Bahkan sampai-sampai membuat saya makin tak bisa memejamkan mata. Nah lho.... Kenapa?
Yeah... Bagian ini lho yang mengusik saya.... "Yes I know... I know I'm gonna lose you but my shoes keep running back to you. Cause they know, there never be another. There will never be another you." Plaaak# Kok dia tau banget sie situasi hati saya?

Hadeeeeh.... Saya jadi kangen.... Kangen sama rumah ini.... Terlebih lagi sama kamu. Kamu yang selalu ada disana, berdiam diri di sudut itu, dan tak pernah beranjak pergi. Fiuh... makin kacau balau rasa hati saya kalau diteruskan. Sebaiknya saya undur diri agar tak semakin meracau.

Enjoy your night and have a sweet dream. Cheers.....

* Yes I know I know I’m Gonna loose you
But my shoes keep running back to you

“Cause they know, there never be another
There will never be another you

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Lelakiku Lelakimu

Entah mengapa kau selalu bilang kalau dia itu lelakimu...
Sementara tak seorangpun yang tahu ataupun mengakui bahwa dia milikmu?
Yakinkah engkau?
Bahwa dia benar-benar lelakimu?

Bagaimana bisa kau meyakini kalau dia adalah lelakimu?
Apa alasanmu berkata demikian?
Sementara tak ada satupun tanda yang mengarah pada pembuktiaan bahwa dia memang benar lelakimu?
Sementara tak ada pula pengakuan yang nyata darinya bahwa dia memang lelakimu?

Kau memang benar bahwa aku tak punya bukti ataupun pengakuan nyata bahwa dia lelakiku....
Kau memang bersamanya.
Semua orangpun mengamini bahwa kalian saling memiliki.
Namun apakah kau benar-benar yakin kalau dia lelakimu seutuhnya?

Kau mungkin mereguki kasih sayangnya yang kau pikir itu cintanya.
Kau mungkin bersamanya setiap saat.
Kau mungkin memiliki raganya.
Namun yakinkah kau kalau dia milikmu seutuhnya?

Kau boleh saja merasa memenangi cintanya.
Kau memang memenangi raganya.
Namun sadarkah kau bilamana sesungguhnya kau tak memenangi jiwanya?
Dia lelakiku karena akulah yang memenangi jiwanya.

Tangerang, 12 Juni 2013
Untukmu lelakiku, kau yang telah memenangi jiwaku.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Good Bye Soul Mate

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...”
― Elizabeth Gilbert - Eat, Pray and Love

Therefore I dare say that you might be my soul mate. You came by just to reveal all of my emotional side, made me realize that we should not see love only from happiness side. We need to see love in whole picture. When you fall in love you might be able to feel happiness-sadness, sweet-bitterness, grace-pain at the same time. That's what I felt when I'm with you. You might be my soul mate but I do realize that we born not to own each one and another. It's too painful for us.

You might be my soul mate but you are not my true love, as true love last forever and has no ending.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. 

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. 

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. 

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. 

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.
― Bob Marley

That's true love.

He is my true love.

Good bye soul mate.